Didn't attend Physics for Han's house. I like to hope that I would not get busted by Miss L on Monday. Han's leaving on Sunday. This was the last time I could see him till his next holiday. They made me smile before reality came rushing right back into my life when it was time to go.

I hope life could be so carefree, when innocence is still diffused within us. A world where everything is more real, just like babies. They cry when they have to cry, laugh when they want to laugh, they don't hide behind a facade. Everyone now wants everyone to think that they're doing just fine. All those lies and superficiality. I've seen too many fake smiles, this speciousness just obviates anything real. I've had enough. But then again, when is enough really enough? That mask that everyone is wearing? It'll never be taken off and you'll never know what another is truly thinking about.

Why the heck did I fucking let myself drag into matters that shouldn't matter-

I only made myself the object of the pain. What you said to me? I'm over it. You should have spoke the truth, you seriously should have. What's the point of telling me all that crap, it's just a wasted conversation. Now, I'm made the fool.

I cannot believe I actually tried to help. It wasn't right, but I can't say it was wrong either. I guess. After all, you just needed to stop him from falling deeper. I never should have asked, should I.

I'm extremely exhausted. Completely effete. Mid years started. First paper-English, screwed up. What more can I say? The comprehension itself could rip me of my confidence. It's only English, my everyday language and it already killed me. I cannot imagine how the other subject papers are going to be like.

I should just get my head focused only on Mid years. To hell with all those problems. They GOT to wait, no matter what. We should give one another a time-out, to just take one step back and perhaps we'll find whatever that we've been searching for and maybe we'll come to realize we've been heading towards the wrong direction all these while.

Baby,I need you right now )=