Your heart is a small miracle



I cannot really remember what happened on Thurs so I'll just skip to Friday evening! SAJC Life's concert! That concert was the bomb yo! Oh yes it was! Everything, everyone was so hyped up. Jumping, praising and worshiping Him (: In other words, the atmosphere was cool. Real cool.

Oh and I come to know that my survival skills are hell good man! HAHA! Because we didn't know how to get to the MRT station from the school and I didn't want to call anyone for help. And I came up with the oh-so clever idea to follow a large group of people. Lost a little trust in myself when they led us to a community centre so we decided to ring Jonadab up and that group of people were really walking towards the MRT station okay!

Something kinda pissed me off and I actually told my Mum I wanted to transfer school. Like Queensway? I wasn't really making any sense when I was talking to her. Yeah, I admit it, I was super rebellious. Told her that I wanted to study out every single day and she asked me what time I would be home so I said 11 since it was Singapore's law. Haha, told you I wasn't making any sense. However, she only allowed me out till 10. I'm not sure if she really means it but I hope she does then I'll hang around Esplanade library most of the time ;D

Learning festival today was b-o-r-i-n-g. Apart from the time whereby Gretchen and I started camwhoring with Hazel's cam without her permission! Haha! c(: We had a picture dedicated to her though! Chinhao came, so did Joel's band! One of the band members even got a fan, really weird one. And the other had girls finding him hot. Hah! This is interesting. Oh, my class screwed up REEL Art Performance big time so we chose not to go up. Its better than disgracing ourself in front of the whole school. Get my point? Yeah. I guess our teachers weren't exactly happy about it.

Cabbed to church! Glad I went though I was dead beat.

To round it all up? Life has been pretty alright, for now.



Uploading pictures from Learning Festival as soon as Hazel sends them to me! :D
Oh hazel.... HEE



The chaos that lurks just beyond all of our front doors is sometimes best ignored




Something tells me that this is going to be a long post. I'm a happy girl today! =D

The day passed by pretty quickly. Lucky for me because I was about to die in the classroom. You know how hard I was trying to keep myself awake(?!?) Yeah, I had insomnia. It came back. Been having it for the past few days. I see the dark rings around my eyes now. Hahaha!

Amath remedial was hell fun (: Maybe remedials aren't as bad as I thought it would be huh. Mr C used to say that happiness is temporary. But today when Hazel told him that she was sad, he told her we must not be sad. So we told him his logic and he said that you don't have to be sad when you're not happy. That means we're going to have to be emotionless D: -Gasp. Yeah, and Chermaine crashed too! Theresa/Tania/Chermaine/Myself joined the whole line of table together and he calls us the covalent bond. Non metal + Non metal? Yup.

Happiness comes in many forms. In the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone's dream come true. When the promise of hope is renewed. It's okay to let yourselves be happy. Because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

Before Amath remedial, Gretchen passed by my class because she got the timing wrongly and we started talking at the corner of my classroom before Chermaine/Theresa/Tania joined in. I've begin to like that spot even though the door there never seem to be able to stay opened by itself. It was a good ole talk though.

I'm so blessed to have a great best-friend like dearest Gretchen! ;D Said that many times already, but it's true. And I like my phone message tone. It's this short giggle by a baby. Imagine. Haha, sweet eh. So every time i receive a message, I'll laugh too! Like the innocence in the laughter? Nice.

Oh I finally found someone who shares the same logic as me! =D Girls are more mature than guys. Haha, the older guys never seem to believe me. But surprisingly, the person who thinks the same as I do is actually a male teacher. Beat that!

I must say this, Gerald always make my day with all his sms-es even though he doesn't really know it.

DADDY ALLOWS ME TO GO FOR JONADAB'S CONCERT!
Told you I'm a happy girl.

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3rd month! <3
Baby I love you.
Just so you know, you mean the world to me!
(:



This feeling that we had right now was not good enough to stay for,
and not bad enough to leave

The chase.

I think about the craziest thing, ever. I want to try dying then I'll revive again. But then again if I got buried, how was I supposed to poke myself through the soil or get myself out of the coffin. They'll seal it up right(?) Do you think this death would matter? Will anyone cry like its the end of the world? Will people be grateful for my life or be shattered by my death? Are memories and photographs of me going to fade? I can't help but wonder.

The pursuit.

I went shopping with my mum yesterday night and we were looking at heels whereby I found some that i fancy but they didn't have my size. Aye, my first time buying heels and they don't have my size D: That's so sad.

The fever of anticipation.

The lightning kept me awake the whole night. So I found myself struggling to crawl out of bed this morning. Jo and Tania played pretty well for doubles. I still cannot believe I was stoning the entire time. I even finished reading Tony Parsons. But its a good thing I missed school today since it is the longest day of the week. Head to Tanglin Mall after the game and we spent quite some time in this toy shop. I can just stick with this particular toy for the whole time. Oh, beanie bears catch my attention too. I'm so going to get one.
Thank you VC for amusing me today.

It's the best bit, isn't it?

I miss you ): Like THIS much!



Just get your act together, or baby give it up

"There's nothing to feel inferior about right?" Who am I kidding. I have every reason in the world to feel jealous. To feel that I shouldn't even be here. To feel small and insignificant in this big, big world. After all, you're everyone's precious.

If you really got to know. I'm not doing so good. You'll never understand how hard it is to fake that smile. Pretend everything is fine. Lie to myself. Lie to everyone else. It isn't easy to just go on and tell myself nothing happened. Because you know what? It hurts. Far greater than i thought it would ever. Maybe you guys should know your limits and shut the hell up. Even if it was only for a minute.

Uncle Adam said whenever he sees us during interclub, Ben and i, we'll be bickering. Over what? I don't know. We always seem to be able to find something against each other. Or rather, we would try to find something. It's getting too much.

I miss the times when the squad was more bonded. More like one. Especially the cheers we did together. Yes, those cheers. I really do miss it. What happened huh. If I held another bbq like our last one, would things turn for the better? Would we still go shop for groceries in the van together? Would we?





You know, I have just been as depressed on sunny days as i have been on cloudy days



I was having one of those lie in bed and pull the covers over your head kinda nights yesterday. I don't know, I've been thinking a lot.

School wasn't all that bad since lessons were pretty light. Oh, the best thing? No physics. And i guess i was in a pretty alright mood. Maybe its the fact that the weekend is nearing. Chinhao even said i seemed happy today. Well, that's good huh.

Highlights of the day for me-Trained for 2.4 today. Guess what?! Ms Ong said that we were allowed to listen to our Ipods/mp3s when we run our actual 2.4. Hey, that's something new. I want to try hitting 11mins. Nah, maybe i should be more realistic- about 12/13 minutes? Yeah that should do. We saw the insides of the human body during Bio today. Haha, it got me a little gross out. Having second thoughts about aspiring to be a doctor now. Perhaps I'll be one that doesn't have to experience all those. I'll be a psychologist. Cool? Cool. Yeah and for SS, i found that people actually volunteer themselves to be suicide bombers. What makes it unbelievable is that they are girls-my age, plus minus. Says its an honour for the country/family, and at least they die for a reason because people kill one another in their country. I don't know, that's kinda sad right?

Right now, I'm rather fed up with my songs. I transferred all my music files over to my hard-drive since it was taking up so so much space in my com and fyi, my com doesn't really have a big storage space. I was still able to listen to those songs when i attached the hard-drive to my com at the beginning. I can't seem to do that now which leaves me to relying on Tania's Itunes or Immem when i crave for a song or something.

Oh yeah, I didn't go for the hockey match. And I'm regretting it now since i didn't plan to go at first, reason being me wanting to start on my homework. See what i'm doing now? Blogging. I'm a greaaat procrastinator. It was the finals man! I think this is the worst kind of pain. Guilt is bad, sadness is bad. But regret is like this sickly combination of both. I even promised to go.

I hope they win. No, they will. Yes they will.

I'M SO GLAD IT'S RAINING(:



MY TASKBAR IS FINALLY FIXED!
ALL THANKS TO LINGHUI!
=DDD



Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play

Yes, as you can see, I'm still blogging on a daily basis but school work has been relatively manageable. Today was rather uneventful. My partner was absent which entitled me to having 2 tables to myself. I like it that way because then i don't have to dump my bag on the floor and my table felt much neater with all my books placed on hers.

I stupidly stayed up till late yesterday, just to finish up my chinese composition and my 2 history graded essays which i thought was dued today. Instead, i found out that all these were due on friday. To think one of the very few occasions where i actually pushed myself was a waste. I even did the wrong homework for history thinking that graded was more important than the other 3 essays. And i got reprimanded for not handing up my compo corrections which i actually did a long long time ago. I really had no idea who or when to hand it in.

Ah this sucks.

What can i expect from school anyway? Like almost all the teachers are putting Miss-'s way of punishing students for not doing their work/doing their work in a 'sloppy' manner to action. Demerit tickets. Every now and then they'll fish those pink slips of theirs out. It really puts me off at times. Scrap that, it puts me off all the time. I mean wth, its so pointless.



If that was life, then it's twisted

My phone died on me today. My dad took out the charger from the plug but i foolishly thought the charger was still plugged in and only realize that my phone hasn't been charging when i was in the car.

B div was so different from the previous years. Maybe because this time I'm not at the lanes and there weren't as many familiar faces as before. I was bored stiff just watching people bowl until Amos came (: Haha. Oh Tania and i took forever to find our way to Yishun Mrt when it was only just a bus ride away. Yeah, it was really retarded dragging a bowling bag along.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE ZHUANG! <3333
HUGS AND KISSES!
Hope you like your gift (got meaning one okay! )



And i don't know how to be fine, when I'm not

Monday blues. Nothing went right today.

• I got 2 demerits for not handing in my Phy workbook before the march holidays. Anyway, 2 more demerits to my collection which means me down for detention /:
• I forgot to bring my Geog textbook.
  
• I had to complete a 35 page biology workbook.
  
• I dropped my lolly ):
• I was down with this really bad flu and cough throughout the whole day.

B div tomorrow. Yeah, i hope i can miss lessons! (: But i have to go back to school for time trial. Sickeningggg.

Shucks, i really don't wanna go down for detention. It's a complete waste of time. Aye, it really eeks me thinking that i have to go for it. WHYYYYYYYYYY ?!?!?!



Monogamy breaks your heart

One week gone-back to school.
Thats pretty quick. I didn't quite enjoy the holiday at all. Besides, i haven't finished up my homework yet. Its a good thing i had Amath tuition to help me finish up my Amath homework which means i'm left with geog,eng,chi,emath,hist. HAHA. I'm dead. Oh yeah, i still have projects to complete. See how bad i am at managing my time?

On a lighter note,
HAVING DINNER WITH PATERNAL COUSINS TODAY!
Well, i just found out. And that's greaaaaaattt news! (:

I seem to be running out of things to blog about.
Alright, toodles huns.



Plead the fleeting moment to remain

Actually, i think the possibility of me switching back to xanga is really high since blogger lags alot. And i'm not a very patient person to begin with. Blogger has its good points too though-Archives! Surprisingly, i could remember my username. Well, there's one reason why i'm blogging again after a hiatus of only 4/5 days ( How pathetic can that get huh) is because i found this skin! =D Aye, its pretty nice yeah. Sooo, this blog, i hope, will not be one that i spend too much time on. Like blogging on a daily basis? I'm gonna try.

Anyway, i almost got screwed today. At least i thought i was going to. Chinhao came over for AWHILE before my dad came back. Think he kinda found out.

Randomly, I'm halfway done in completing Tony parsons-man and wife =D Whoohoo! Then i'll head on to his next novel. Inter-club tomorrow at CSC. I'm going to just die there. I'm going to drag the whole team average down. I'm going to disappoint everyone. Including me.